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Friday, September 30, 2005

haloz.

not feelin gd

hvnt been gd for sumtime.

today was gd actualli until afew mins ago.

until i revealed my prelim L1R5 to my dad.

disappointing to em i suppose.

to me too u noe.

but im actualli quite hapi bt e improvement tat ive made.

well my parents arent gonna sit down n listen to my point of view.

so ill jus hv to get all e insults n discrimination in e hse.

but.

im nt gonna let this affect me.

im a mugger(realli?)

oh ya jus started being one.

its fun actualli.

self satisfaction is e best.

haha.

well.

hvnt got much things to say.

jus.

this isnt wad a 16yr old shld go thru.

totally dude totally.

anywayz.

went to watch THE DUKES OF HAZZARD today.farni.quite enjoying.

well.today is e last day of my 'going out' period.

im gonna start studying properly tml.

hopin to improve again at o's.realli.hoping.

so yepz.tats all.

blurry mind.

blurry tots.

blurry past.blurry present.hopefully nt a blurry future.

c ya roun' peepz..byez.

>>oru murai mugam paarka thudikuthu ullam.kaaveri nathi thaandum kanngalil vellam.<<

magic through at 8:10 PM

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

AdA KadaVUlEh

ok first things first..

prelims results..hmmm..actualli vanthu..im nt disappointed la..cos my Htamil n eng is expected grade..but amaths oni lar..lil saddening..but i still passed it! isnt that i happy news? i noe!!!

BUT...

im counting on SSG n Emaths tml...i beta get gd grades..or else..

me not gonna do anythin actualli.jus mug more n go work during my first three months.

tats seriously gonna help me man..money money money..is exactly wad i need now..

haiz...anywayz..

nthg much to comment now...

prelims results n mugging for O's is e oni thing running in mua mind..che!che!

k tataz!!

>>mai pola naanum un kannil sehra vendum poovai pola naanum un koonthal sehra vendum<<

magic through at 3:23 PM

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

past two days hv been tiring for me..n sleepy as usual..more than usual actualli cos..me nt feeling well..c la..i fell sick again..realli..i think im jinxed this yr..hv been falling sick pretty often.

yep.so.ive.got.nthg.to.say.

haiz.

well.jus.finished.fnn.coverpage.contents.page.and.bibliography.thnk.god.i.dun.hv.much.work.on.fnn.

to.do.

yea..so nthg much la..had career talk yest and jc talk today..not that fun but nt that boring either la..quite ok...ive been realli impressed by Victoria JC.but hmm..my heart lies wif AJ..dunno wad to decide oso..im seriously considering VJC but can i get in thats e big qn????

i like AJC so much but realli is it worth going there?

i luv the ICS. Travelling time is short.n i think i can survive in tat sch lar..unlike VJC, ill probably be in e bottom of the batch all yr man. as for VJC, its in bedok side.man its gonan take me ages to get there..BUT...it offers THEATRE STUDIES! thats wad i wan..*in a dilemma*haiz..well i think ill jus aim high n c wad i get..n ill jus b happy wif wad i get.

so till next time...tataz!

*getting prelims results tml!!!! arghz.*

>>Nenjeh thulli poh! kaadhal solli poh!<<

magic through at 8:21 PM

Sunday, September 25, 2005

yo..

hiz..a very bored weekend indeed!!! hvnt gone out..devi? nva go out? doesnt tat mean its gonna rain? yesh..infact it did pour last nite..haiz haiz..

yep anywayz..yest was one shiok movie! THALAPATHI.

woa..but i realli felt aravindsamy is sucha turn off to e movie...y does he hv to marry shobana.blady moron. anyway e movie jus reminded me of one thing! KARNA in mahabharatha. *galz u remember?* haha..maganeh!!!

haha..man it totally reminded me of mother love scene sial..n when thalapathi gets hurt its like karna dying at e war...n when aravindsamy realises hes e broder..its like arjunan realising he killed karna(his bro)..yep n mamoothi is like dhuriyodhana(karna's bestu frend)..n e mother is like kunthi devi(karna's mum) she left him at the river when he was born..n of cos nt forgetting krishna hu controlled n planned everything but i cldnt a resemblence of krishna in thalapathi..haiz..my god! drama rocked last yr..*vithi vanchitha sathi* totally rox..

hmmm...then wad else..nthg much la..cant wait to go to sch n c mua frenz..they make ma day! so till then tataz!

>>un kuraigal naan ariyavillai..naan arinthaal suriyanil sutham illai..<<

magic through at 12:20 PM

Friday, September 23, 2005

helloz!

today

didnt

sch!! yipeee..hahah..

i woke up at nine still..early rite...yea1

yea..today wasnt fun at all la..i jus stayed home..was called out for a movie by dhiv..but didnt go cos i HAD NO MONEY..aarrgghhzz..i hv to wait till e 28th..my gosh..

yep..so my day's been slow..watched ullathai all thaa..funny ah oru movie..hehe..then went to sleep but cldnt sleep..tot bt stuff..haiz..tension ppl tension!

anywayz..yep..eating maggi now..hehe..gtg nowz..tata!!

>>aranmanai vaasal thaandiyeh anbukku yenginen..unnidam serntha pinbu thaan sorgathai vaanginen.<<

magic through at 5:14 PM

Thursday, September 22, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIVYA!!!

well ur bdae has been my lucky day..chem/bio practical was gd...nt bad..jus tat maybe i made stupid mistakes like i always do..

haha..anywayz..today's e last day of my prelims..woohoo...tat felt super gd..but obv the tot of o's is still in my mind..haiz..but im gonna slack for e next few days..jus to get e rest tat i deserve.. :P do i?

haha..yep anywayz..jus watched my shahrukh's movie..chalte chalte..my god..hes damn super duper hot lar..sad tat hes turning 40 this yr..realli sad..but does love need age? NO! so i declare my luv for him...but he'll nva noe..so nvm..lets get back to reality then..

life's all gd...jus screwings here n there..i hope my prelims results r gd..cos..i dun wan my parents to nag at me" its becos uve been hanging on e fone..bla bla bla" my god! e last thing ill eva wan!!!!!!!

so nvm..me gonna slack now.c ya soon! byez!

>>entha ulagellaam naan izhanthaalum en pani pooveh unnai paarthaal pothum..<<

magic through at 6:52 PM

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

ToDaY...

not as bad as i tot it mite be..

woke up in de morn' wif one tot in my mind... WILL I EVA GET PROPER SLEEP?

haha..well then i realised the answer is AFT E O'S..my gosh..haiz..

yep yep..

so today was pretty fun actualli..

firstly my fnn paper..haha! quite a screw wadeva i banged on din cum out lar..fun rite..i noe i did hv fun playing hide n seek wif the answers in my brain..

yea..so leave the fnn paper aside..cuming to the aft sch thingy...

i,divya,jes,nithya,trixie,sam, varg,szeyu,kush,anandhi,kanchana,premila n nanny..all frm 4H..hehe..went to hv breakfast in pp mac..it was fun as it felt like a class gathering..haha..yep..then sum left home..n then sandy, loo, dhivya, anisha joined me n divya..for lunch..after tat dhivya rented MEET E FOCKERS so a few us decided to go to dhivya's hse to watch e movie..haha..fun lar..

actuaalli vanthu..i hv a pract paper tml..n c lar..im oready enjoyin...HAHA. silly me..

yea..so now im home..jus found out vish had a surgery done cos there was sum thingy at her leg..scaryy!!! hope shes fine..jus chatted wif her..dumb gal..wif the leg pain she still wants to go give tuition...c la..nva learn her lesson..

yep..then wad else...mum's back..im nt planning to say anything..haha..weirdo me! mistake is mine but dunno y im pist! haiz..anywayz..i beta get going before she starts nagging at me for using e comp..so tata!

>>jigujiggle it to e left..ahahah..jigujiggle it to e right..ahahah..jiggle it to e front jiggle it to e back..jigujiggle it all nite<<

magic through at 6:50 PM

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

jus as i predicted..i jus got screwed for my bill...

haiz..waulau its nt like my bill's like this every month u noe..every month it cums to 50plus 60 oni..jus tat sum months it shoots high..man..does it suck..it does!!! n now its gonna get terminated..theres goes my hp line..there goes my fone..sumtimes i do feel its beta w/o a fone..but realli my fone is damn necessary for me..i feel like a bum now..dad's damn angry..hes like realli pist off wif me..actualli it doesnt bother me even if they dun talk to me or anything but if they're planning to give me an emotional torture by terminating my hp line..realli that sux!

haiz..my mood's all down...mum's scolding me too..later dunno hu hu all gonna screw me la..

i suck dun i?

>>naa oorukuula sakkaravarthi aanaa unmaiyileh meluguvathi<<

magic through at 6:39 PM

hmmm...

hmmmm...

hmmmmm...

wad is happening? haiyo i dunnno la..exams has jus been in my mind all week..today i had e chance to sleep till 10 hehe..but of cos i was out at tp lib and novena studying wif dhivya,anisha, nanny,shalom n peiying..

yep..

so nthg much today la..been doing fnn since 12 n took a break at 5..n m still gonna continue laterz..does it suck or does it suck? maybe....it jus sux ah!

well

was

tokking

fren

yest.

he said quite afew stuff that r still fresh in my mind. hes young yet wif very mature tots..well wadeva he said..hmm..i do agree but i dun think ill apply it in my life or will it eva be relevent in my life..well lets jus say..ill keep wadeva he said in mua mind..

ya..n hey vish..thnx for e mail..ya true its been very long since we rote to each other eh...i wish i cld go to rjc so that we can continue our card ritings...fun eh..but realli...me? in rjc? NO WAY MAN! devi in rjc is like nva possible. ya..so sowie vish...no more ritings for us.. haha!

OH YA! guess my hp bill...90 bucks!!! man im gonen be so screwed! 2months ago my bill was 130..by all my means i brought it down to 59 the following month..n NOW...its up to 90 la..haiyo..tell me wad shld i do..kill myself? maybe! thnx to someone hu made me do outgoing to at least an hr..thats wad im paying for..damn it!

arghz...man i jus hope they dun think bt terminating my line..i wld die w/o my fone sial..my life's gone!!!!! (crying) haha...wad m i to do la..kadavuleh!

anywayz..nvm..i beta stop here..gonna go mug soon..c ya!

>>nagam kadikum penneh adakaatha aasai naagareegam paarthaal nadakkaathu poojai<<

magic through at 6:24 PM

Monday, September 19, 2005

woa...today was a long day..

had e two worse papers eva..amaths n chemisTRY...i realli gota TRY to pass it..

my goduuuu...yea..actualli my first paper was amaths..wasnt too bad..even though i din do 12marks worth of qns..i still think i may hv screwed all the other qns..which is a real trauma..haiz..devi...im going thru too much mental stress..aft thursday..trust me ppl..im gonna be at least half a freebird..hehehe..

after tat was chem paper..man if oni i mugged!!! i wld hv gotten perfect answers..well i didnt so nvm...i still think i did my bez for both papers..jus wanna get at least C5 or B4 la..

newaez enuff of exams...

after my papers today..nanny, loo,sandy, jes n me..were in pp..we had fun la..we went coffee shop..n then mac then back to coffee shop wif anisha n dhiv..we ate lunch there..we crapped alot..as usual..we started singin e stupidest tamil songs..sonnapadi kellu makar pannaathey enudaiya aalu edainjal pannathey..hehehe...wad else ah..naan sirithaal deepavali oi naalum engeh yegaathesi..haha..n actualli more songs but they're censored!! hahaha...*oni dhiv sandu n nanny will noe*

HAHA. well ya..my day was pretty ok...laffings n tokkings..quite joyful.. :) hoping it'll last!

wel..life..life..life..going pretty gd for me..hmmm..let me think again...realli???

haha..not exactly la..misunderstandings and drifting and more emotional rollercoatsers..

well its all kinda usual oready so WTH..rite..hmm..jsu thinking bt how things wld be in e future..how i wld be in a diff sch..wif diff ppl..will they be nice to me, like how my frenz r now? facing a whole new world outside makes me scared..i usually hv no probs adapting myself to a new environment..but its nt jus abt adapting its bt living..can i live in e new atmosphere? the new ppl? these r issues tat ive to ponder ova..i barely hv a month to stay in cedar..to be called or referred to as a cedarian...i wun be sad or anything tat im nt a cedarian nemore..but its bt the memories tat i leave behind in e sch..its bt the ppl..n actualli............................... its also bt the FEW TIMES tat i m proud to say that 'im frm cedar' .. maybe ten yrs down e road........i mite be proud of being a cedarian once..maybe ten yrs down e road...i wun even want to acknowledge my ex sch..so many many possibilities lie ahead of me..n its in my hands to choose wad i wan...

well..let me say my golden words..' let time answer u ' lets jus wait n c wad life has to offer me...

so till e next time..adios!

>>Pani raathiri oh...pattu paai viri..Suba raathiri oh..puthu maathiri..vidiya vidiya..siva raathiri..*winkz*<<

magic through at 8:25 PM

Sunday, September 18, 2005

hey peepz..

hello...hey i like my new skin..heheh..kissesss....muax!

hahah..well im kinda in a gd mood..dunno y oso..i was sad jus now..but im fine actualli..

thnx vimal for ur chocolates..hehe..n thiru n arwin for all ur crappy jokes today..n yesh..pravin..special thnx to u.. :)

well..today was a mentally tirin day...went to meet vithya,arwin n thiru at yishun to study..i did! dunno if they did..hehehe..yep..i was duin amaths in BK. until e in- charge chased us out saying we cant study in BK..i was like wad crap lar...then we went to mac to study..till like 4..then those 3 left..i studied till 430 n met vimal..then went to tampines to take my chem text frm namma pravin anna..yea..then yep..im back home yar...well well well..still got lots to study for tml's chem paper..woohoo...at least amaths i did sumthing...chem? i nva touched it for a week sial...dunno wad crap is going on oso..

haiz..i jus hope i'll hv a gd day tml..dun wanna screw anything up..ive already screwed things up real bad for myself..(sadzzzzzz...)

P.S: to u B.I.T.C.H hmmmm....ive got nuthin to say..jus whoosh off la..

haha!

well gtg now..tata!

>>poovin mugavari kaatru ariyumeh ennai un manam ariyaatha?<<

magic through at 8:25 PM

Friday, September 16, 2005

Oi u !!

hey u B.I.T.C.H

--->> watcha looking at>

wad e F u thinking ah...u noe i fucking hate u..n yet u try to come in my way..wah..u fucking daring ah Bitch.. i let u off not once not twice but thrice..well now ive burst..ive had enuff wif u loser bitch..im disgusted that there was a period of time that i actualli let my ego go jus to be nice to u..u noe wad..u fucking gross me out..

u blady hurt my frenz..n sumtimes i think they're very dumb to even acknowledge u..but wad to do..my frenz r being nice to LOSERS like u..haiz haiz haiz..i realli pity losers like u..u noe hw much u always try to cling on to ppl n how u always try to be a irritating pest n how u always yarn for attn..well....all that ive got to say is............YUCK! maybe u shld realli try to whoosh off my sight or else i mite jus cum up to u n whacked e shit out of u...beware B.I.T.C.H..

well enuff of that...its making my mood worse..

well today...hmmm...emaths paper2 and tamil paper2..well i shld say it wasnt a very bad paper after all..jus that damn locus qn...my god...damn screw la
yep..after tat was tamil paper..no comments..jus as i expected that blady vaakiyam sorkal were blady tuff la..words tat ive nva heard of all came....wonder where does omar get all these words la..haiyo haiyo..but nvm..its e prelims..i will buck up for o's..i will...(devi u beta!)
hahah...yep..anyway..going off now..

in a pist off mood..(bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch..aarrgghhhzz) che che! kids these days..thollai thaanga mudiyaleh..
hehe..

tata! chowz! bubyez! tc! muax!

>>neeyum theeyum ondralla entha theeyum un pohla suduvathillai ennai sudvathillai..<<

magic through at 4:39 PM

Thursday, September 15, 2005

did i tell u?

did i tell u that my life like totalli sux rite now...my gosh...wad in e world is happening to me la..

well ya..my gosh! studies totally freek me out..
my brain's overloaded!!!

wad can i say man...wad can i say..im jus glad that e week's gonna end so that i can at least take abit..let me stress the word again..ABIT of rest...but to think bt it..how e hell can i rest..im hving amaths n chem n fnn n sci practical cuming up next week...haiyo..(engeh nimmathi engeh nimmathi..angeh enakkor idam vendum..) haiz..well ya..my fren told me today that u may be glad that ur prelims r gonna be ova but o's r cuming up hunnie!!! my god..the tot of it totaali sends shivers down my spine la.. ya..
then im hving emaths paper2 and tamil paper2 tml la..im feeling ratehr prepared for the papers but u noe im still lil scared n worried..as usual la..esp for emaths..i think ive done enuff studying i also think maybe nt...haiz..im quite a confused person ah..hahaha...yep.. im realli driving myself nuts rite now thinking bt exams...

for all those ppl out there hving exams now..i totally understand ur feelings..lets jus say..we r all in e same boat la..haiz haiz haiz..dreadful life im living now..this is e kind of shit u get if ure a sec4 student in a rather horrible sch...

hmm..i always tot o's was challenge that will bring some gd into ur lif smday...but rite now..realli...its a TRAUMA!
well haiz...nvm..let me jus end my complaining seesion here..till next time..adios peeps!

>>unakkeh uyiraanen ennaalum enai nee maravaathey.nee illaamal ethu nimmathi, neethaaneh en sannithi.<<

magic through at 10:27 PM

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

AdA kadavuleh...

haiyo..jus as i expected..i tot this day wld cum..but i also tot..maybe it wun...but TADAA! its here...dunno wads happening roun me...i want to noe but at e same time i dun want to...haiz..

anyway..today went ok..had a pretty gd paper..not bad la..jus tat careless mistakes here n there..but ill be glad if i pass e paper..hehe..yep..after that i jus headed straight home...guess wad..i decided to sleep n slept at 230, woke up at 6 oni..hahaha...crazy me! yea..so hving dinner now...gonna mug my ass off for geog n sci now...hope to hv a gd dae tml... :)

Life is a bumpy road eh... Kadavuleh...

>>unnai kanden kalainthen kalantheneh ada unnil uraintheneh..indru ennul maatram thanthaaiyeh unai endrum maraveneh..<<

magic through at 6:44 PM

Monday, September 12, 2005

DeAr GoD...

for all those times when i knelt down by my bed...looked up into the sky...and hoped u were looking at my tears...when i always cried my hearts out for something that i lost emotionally, 3 yrs ago...

u nva really made a diff in my life...i simply shed tears for nothin...
SO..i gave up!

well..yet again..for sumthign diff.......im kneeling down by my bed..looking up at u..hoping ure looking at my tears.. now im begging u to pls give them back to me...i onli have them to fall back on..puleeze!

>>un punnagai naan semikkindra selvamadi nee illaiyendral naanum ingu yezhaiyadi<<

magic through at 6:29 PM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

ermmm...

Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over,And it seems as though the writings on the wall,Superstar you finally made it,But once your picture becomes tainted,It's what they call,The rise and fall [x2]

I always said that I was gonna make it,Now it's plain for everyone to see,But this game I'm in don't take no prisoners,Just casualties,I know that everything is gonna change,Even the friends I knew before me go,But this dream is the life I've been searching for,Started believing that I was the greatest,My life was never gonna be the same,Cause with the money came a different status,That's when things change,Now I'm too concerned with all the things I own,Blinded by all the pretty girls I see,I'm beginning to lose my integrity

Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over,And it seems as though the writings on the wall,Superstar you finally made it,But once your picture becomes tainted,It's what they call,The rise and fall

I never used to be a troublemaker,Now I don't even wanna please the fans,No autographs,No interviews,No pictures,And less demands,Given advice that was clearly wrong,The type that seems to make me feel so right,But some things you may find can take over your life,Burnt all my bridges now I've run out of places,And there's nowhere left for me to turn,Been caught in comprimising situations,I should have learnt,From all those times I didn't walk away,When I knew that it was best to go,Is it too late to show you the shape of my heart,

Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over,And it seems as though the writings on the wall,Superstar you finally made it,But once your picture becomes tainted,It's what they call,The rise and fall

Now I know,I made mistakes,Think I don't care,But you don't realise what this means to me,So let me have,Just one more chance,I'm not the man I used to be,Used to beeeeeeeeeee

magic through at 7:05 PM

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

i DuN CaRe

omg!!!!!!
y la y...ppl..let me make the decisions that i wan to..y r ppl these days making decisions for me...or infact u r trying to convince me..thats e last thing u shld do actualli..its pissing me off bigtime...

god well..hvnt been out yesterday n today..not planning to actualli..its so hard to keep up wif so many things these days..things getting more n more complicated n diff...n my studies...omg! im trying my level best realli..i m...pls god understand that...if ive been playful these days.....sowie...ok?

haiz...dunno wad to rite bt oready la..i beta get going..tata!

>> i dunno wad it is..that makes me feel like this..i dunno hu u r..but u must be sum kinda SUPERSTAR..<<

magic through at 2:10 PM

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

GooDnEss GrAcIOUS ME

thats e pic of me n raj during kohila's birthday party...
hha..my god..its been like a week since i blogged..hmm..my depression state had affected me quite alot..but of cos i had my frenz to cheer me up..thnx vish..dhivya..and 143 makkals...hehehe...yea!

anyway..hmm..so manny manny things happening..its hard to keep up wif them..

first things first...exams! ok i had my eng paper on fri e 2nd..not an extremely gr8 paper..was ok oni...hopin for a B3 at least..ya! guess wad i rote bt...things that make me a proud singaporean! my god! at that time i realli had no other choice la...though im nt exactly very proud singapore had a gd ctry..so i rote bt it...haiz haiz..ya..then..woohoo..ive been out almost everyday after that..to study of cos..on sunday the 4th was kohila darlings bdae. so i met up wif ruby n arathi to study in woodlands first and then went to her hse for the party..obv i saw sum unwanted ppl...aaarrggghhzzz.sucks but hu cares...u noe wad JERK..ive moved on! im single n rocking! haiz..then i n ruby had a gd chat wif ismath anna n logan appa..wow..man..kohila is so lucky to hv had a gr8 15th bdae..haiz haiz haiz..i didnt!! hahah...but im happy..

yep! so after that yesterdae..i was out in pp wif jesmine studying bio..wow..at last i decided to touch my bio n did sum ten yr series...then i met up wif rishi n went to novena where i met dhiv..then at the starbucks we were studying..pravin was studyin too! haha..yea..then..i left the place at bt 630..n headed for home..yea..n today..my ass is gonan be stuck in the hse..im nt going anywhere..im nt!!! that feeling sux but thats reality! haha!

yea..hmm..dunno wad to say or do..

u.yea u.
uve made my heart go fluttery.
uve made me think bt u.
think bt u.
thats nt gd.
nt gd for me.
but u noe wad.
i actualli like it.
yea.
i like it.
; )

>>mayiliragaai ennai maarbil anaithu..nuni viralaal oru paadam nadathu<<

magic through at 2:36 PM