every exam period this is how i feel! like pullin the head out of the body! eeeaaarrrggghhh..
well its all cos of the mr n miss smarties in skl..
well i tot i had enuff of those THINGS in cedar..but gosh it keeps hauntin me... its jus so annoyin the kinda of comments those smarties say after their paper.. 'screwed' 'shit lar' 'dont ask' 'horrible' WELL i do say such things but hey i hv a reason to cos i do end up gettin U. or fail.. but those aliens from mars get As n go..'omg i dint expect'
this brings back memories of my cedar days... those PRCs...will leave the exam hall cryin..n get an A.(wonder y they cry) the best part is yet to come...they will fight wif the teachers one mark TO PUSH A 92 TO 93. now tat makes me wanna throw sumthin at them..i mean if its a one mark push to the next grade yesh..even i wld do tat..but hello..even after u donate ten marks to me...ull still be an A la..y bother bt that one mark. oh lord seriously wad kinda ppl hv u created. Another kind of species r those hu go realli sad cos the teacher deducted one or two mayb 3 marks cos she found her mistakin in marking...n there goes the smarty...argue y she shld get the mark n all...n u noe wad..shes a clear cut A. like i said earlier.. if she were to give ten marks to me..she'll still be an A..n i wld hv just reached the pass.. =)
then recently..i had a skl mate hu did chem paper n met me..n went.. ' i can afford to lose ten marks to get an A' n devi goes" pls jump off the nearby cliff" I came out of my math paper n went ' if the marker doesnt deduct marks other than for those i realli din do, then MAYBE i stand a chance to pass' now see the drastic diff?
but hey my fav is this... mornin b4 assembly...im revisin my notes for test..franticalli wif the others.. n comes X. devi: hey hw studied? prepared la u.. X: no la...................(realli tats hw X toks). i came home ate slp..then wake up eat watch tv n slp..never do anything(act panic) ofcos devi noes the truth..so i ask the magical qn. devi: so did anything? X: ya la abit..hehe.. devi thinks to herself ' wtf '
im not sayin anythin further...come on tell me wad YOU feel like doin to X...
haha...was jus thinkin bt these ppl on my way back..cos every exam i c these creatures arn..they r realli weird like.. ure A. wad more u wan. fine. be disappointed but i feel that kinda actions r too annoying.. well by tellin us u mugged all nite, ur info in the brain isnt gonna penetrate out n diffuse into mine la..if u think tat by tellin ppl honestly tat ya i studied for it, ull get an evil eye cast upon u..then hey U r the topic for me to laff abt when im extremely bored. if got gd reason ah..il really say ok..but i dun c the logic y ppl react this way..
tats all for my rattling..
magic through at 6:18 AM
Thursday, June 28, 2007
imisshim
imisshim
well u mite think him refers to my bf or sumthin like tat...actualli no.. im referin to my bro..
been yrs since we sat to talk..been yrs since we actualli looked at each other in the eye n went 'hi sibling' its realli sad cos im envyin all my frenz for their wonderful family life(meanin parents n siblings) n somehow im always lost when they talk bt it. im jus way off their frequency when tat topic comes. i oni rember my younger days where i jump on my dad everyday when he came back from wk.now home is a chore.home serves the purpose of shelter n food. its so emotionless. i grew with it.but i realli dun like it. and my bro..was like my childhood 2nd hero(aft my dad hu will always be my superhero) every play time was bt "anneh!" meaning bro in tamil.. used to watch wrestling cos he did.watched soccer cos he did. played soccer cos he did. but now its..well its like hes non existent in my world. well ive always wondered hw all of these came about..was it age? was it my defiant attitude wif my family? was his fault? i actualli dunno..
ive bulit a wall around me n created a whole new world within tat territory n jus left them behind the wall.. im so used to it..been 4 to 5 yrs since family was secondary to me.. as much as i wan the times back..i jus refuse to break the wall..somehow im stronger n confident..but i wldnt be hu i m w/o my dad.. he n his "do well the next time.u can do it" their high expectations of me made be believe, education is worth my time.. i can totally recall hw proudly my father told his colleagues aft my postin for psle..'my daughter got cedar'. i mean nt like cedar is the best skl around..rgs n scgs was like out of the world options la..but still i cld c hw proud he was...everytime i cried aft my exam was only cos i knew i disappointed him..n ofcos also tat i noe i shld hv done more la..hehe..
but ya..
a very random post aft so long esp..but it meant sumthin to me..hope it'll spark off sumthin to u guys..(if ull read tat is)
>>naa aambalaiyeh paakaatha kaathu enna apadiyeh alli yeduthu potuu<<
magic through at 3:29 AM
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